I am in no way recovered from my eating disorders. I am actually still in the very first stages of it. It has been about two weeks since I’ve purged (it had been almost a month before that as opposed to more than five times a day) and I eat at least 1400 calories a day (usually more).  I use clean eating and exercise as a way to deal with eating again…the only way I feel comfortable eating is if the food is extremely healthy and if I’m being really active. 

As far as trying to lose weight I’m not really. I’ve gained 15 pounds since I was at my lowest which was 100 and I’m 5’7….so the weight gain has been really really hard for me. I have this number of 108 in my head and I want to see if I can get there and maintain it the healthy way. I probably won’t be able to, but I’m not really trying to be honest. I eat too much to lose weight. If I stay at 115 I’ll still be happy. Gaining more right now would probably lead me to a relapse.

My blog is to inspire others to lose weight the healthy way if that’s what they’re trying to do..or just to be more healthy and active in general. It isn’t all about losing weight necessarily. 

So, yes, I still technically have an eating disorder, but no I’m not actively trying to lose weight. 

Thanks for asking, I’m sure a lot of people were wondering this.